The right state of your mind

ETA: You know how people will tell you that you deserve better? What if you don't? I am consistently getting shit thrown into my face and I don't know where I went wrong. I don't know if I believe in karma, but something has recently happened that reinstated my possible belief. Anyway. How do you know what someone deserves. I know I shouldn't have gotten the shit end of the stick in this case. However, insecurities get to people and sometimes things don't make sense. Like this post. Nobody will get it. I don't even get it.

And another thing I'm not too fond of. I feel like a substitute. You know, like one of those girls that you hang out with until something "better" comes along. I don't know what the fuck you expect, but in most of the cases with these guys, they won't be better.


I'm also tired of being self-conscious. I don't want to be constantly paranoid that people are always looking at me, but it happens I guess.

Can you be addicted to second-hand smoke? I think it's happening. I'm not going to go smoke my own, but being around smokers and the scent is relaxing. I'm truly fucked up.




I've been writing haikus. Most of them are pretty funny. Let me know if you'd like me to write you one.

I'm pretending I'm not in Israel right now. You leave drama, you get drama.