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Sometimes I can't sleep unless I write or type out the thoughts that are whirling around in my head. I've had some interesting bouts of insomnia lately. It has all been related to the future that I've heard so much about. In high school, my teachers would say that this would help us in our future and our academic career. I think that if it could, academics would fire me. I've passed a grand total of one out of seven classes this year, when prior to it, I had never failed a class. I made a large mistake of where I wanted to go after high school. Everyone else was going to college and it seemed like the thing to do. I want to be in school, but not at the college I attend currently. The mentality of the students is incredibly poor and it seems like second rate education. I don't want second rate. I want dedicated teachers who are there to teach the dedicated students. Me. I want to be dedicated to something. I am thinking about med school, but I'm not sure of the details. I know I love science and I love helping others.

But anyways, I took a picture. It looks like it was taken with a film camera , but it's entirely digital. It's out of focus, like myself.


I went to a party this weekend with my coworkers. I drank alongside my managers that I saw the next day. I have not had this much fun in a long time. This is how i want to live my life. I want to be surrounded by true friends and just enjoy everything that goes on around me. I'm going to be very happy when Kevin moves here so I can have him meet them. He's been a huge inspiration to me, and I'm incredibly lucky to have him apart of my life.



I think I'll be able to sleep now.